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| My baby girl & Me at the Pumpkin Patch our anual outing to get pictures,cider & donuts!1 |
Hello Blogee's,
Another Fall day in Southeastern Michigan. The colors are still vivid and the gorgeous reds, oranges and yellows in the leaves are still hanging onto the trees. In a few short weeks we will be well into the Michigan cold winter and the snow will be falling. The first time it snows, there always seems to be a "magic" in the air. It's that first snow fall of the year. We see the kids catching it on their tongues and running about in the crisp air . People are hustling and bustling to get all of their Holiday shopping done and food bought and prepared if possible ahead of time. In the air there seems to be a small difference in the way people act. I wonder if it's my imagination or if it really is happening, that people seem just a tad bit more kind during the holiday time, or prior to it. I don't have alot of Thanksgiving day memories, though I remember a time or two that we went to my Aunt Vera's house (my mom complained and moaned and groaned before, during and after...that part was totally unbearable!) for Thanksgiving day/dinner and it was the best food I had ever eaten in my whole life. My Aunt Vera could cook like nobody else could and she had all of the trimmings and did all of the work and it seems in my memory bank that no one ever really offered to help her much. I sort of feel like we all thought she "enjoyed" doing this for everyone, I wonder if she did? I loved seeing my cousins Tim, Tom and Marilyn (Marilyn was grown by that time that I really remember visiting there and I don't really remember her living there because she married and moved to California soon after, I believe). Tim was like my brothers, he didn't want me "Messing up his room or getting in his stuff"...I was used to that!! Tom, on the other hand would let me play endlessly on his typewriter upstairs in his room all by myself and I felt like I had an "office" where I could get away from all of the "people" downstairs talking "grown up talk". My two brothers would hang out with Tim and I would then go up and play on Tom's typewriter until practically time to go home. I always remember Aunt Vera wearing an apron and being very pretty and nicely done up and very neat.
Funny how the years go by, life changes so much. Now I'm the "mom" and the one who plans the holidays out and the meals and the people etc. I'm glad that we have wonderful friends who spend time with us during the holidays. It is true what they say that "friends become our chosen family". My husband and I have really no extended family any longer. We have no parents, no siblings, he has no cousins and I just have a couple of them and one in Arizona! I don't have 2 daughter's anymore, I have just one now. It's a long and sad...very sad story and my heart breaks every single day. I miss my oldest daughter more than words could ever express and more than I could ever pour out in writing because there is no way to explain the broken heartedness of a parent whose lost an adult child; even more so because I'm the one that raised her 90% alone and by myself. I would not change one minute of our time together except at the end when she walked out of our home and has never come back. The horror of the "stories" she has told would curl your hair and have broken my heart in two. To the point that I even had a REAL heart attack and the Dr. or cardiologist (who's known my girls and I since 1991) said that I was his first true case of "broken heart syndrome". He knew how much I love my 2 daughters; how they were/are my life,love,joy and my everything happy and good in this world (except of course for my husband now, Craig ..he is also my everything and I would not want to live without him either). I am so grateful that I have Amy and Craig still in my life. I am so ecstatic that they are here with me and that the 3 of us get along so well and love each other and do things as a "family" together. Just last week we carved a pumpkin for Halloween and took pictures that looked like a "sit-com" when we look back at them now!! LOL.. Amy is all grown up now at 22 yrs old and she got a template off of the computer, punched holes into the pumpkin, carved it while I took pictures and Craig helped carve the top and gut the pumpkin. She made a"Hello Kitty" pumpkin without any help in the artistic department from either of us!! She did a wonderful job and its a gorgeous pumpkin. No one LOVES Halloween and Fall more than Amy does. I think partially because her birthday is the 6th of October! She is engaged to a nice young man named Scott E. right now and they are planning a nice Fall wedding some time in the future when Amy is finished with her Master's degree in which she is at the tail end of her first semester right now! I will show you a few pictures from our family Halloween pumpkin carving. Then I will put up a couple pictures from Craig's classroom Halloween party when I dressed up as a sailor (*I used Amy's old Scottish dancing costume for a dance called the "sailors hornpipe"), and Craig was a "bug" with antennae, big huge bug eye glasses and a "Terminex" shirt on!! It was a fun little party and the kids were adorable. I loved getting my hugs and chatting with them and with their parents too! Halloween night Scott and Amy were here and we watched a bit of our programs on T.V. and passed out "small bags of chips etc" to the kids trick or treating! We got to see our neighbors daughter and her 4 kids and they were the high lite of the evening!!!
I will end here tonight and hope that everyone has a blessed week and just remember that change is the only thing that truly always happens. Nothing stays the same for long and if you don't like how today is, then wait until tomorrow because things always change. It's not always for the better or the way we want it to turn out, but God has a plan and he knows what is best for us, even when we really don't like it! Someday we'll find out or maybe we never will...why things turned out the way they have. I've learned or am learning to just hang on, live for today because it is the "present" which means it is a "gift". I try not to pine away too much for the past (though it doesn't work very often or very well but I keep on trying). I also try not to worry too much about tomorrow because there's not much you can do about the future as it is a mystery. So, my friends please enjoy "today" as best you can and we'll work out "tomorrow's" as they come to us..
thank you so much ...SuzyQ
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| Amy playing with Goop!!EWWWW |
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| Amy did her very own "HELLO KITTY" Pumpkin~~ |
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| Amy and Momma playing with pumpkin "goop"....yuk... |
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